My life is literally an open book for those of you who are familiar with my book "For My Girls" and I do believe that my passion for writing and sharing my experiences is from God otherwise it wouldn't be there. Apart from the obvious hope that my writing inspires and stories can be a testimony to anyone going through their own stuff; one of the reasons I am so passionate about my writing is because I can always go back and then I am reminded of each trial that God brought me through and every prayer that He answered!
In November of this year Brad and I will celebrate our 6th wedding anniversary and up to this point I can honestly say that these first years of our marriage have been devastatingly challenging so much so to the point that there have been times where it felt like the trials we endured was going to break me. That says a lot because I am a very strong woman and it takes A LOT to get me down. I have been through a lot and God has lifted me out of a lot of horrifying and painful situations so trials don't slow me down or "scare" me but this time I honestly thought I wouldn't make it through this without some serious damage to my mind and emotions but now that it is behind us God is showing us that everything we have been through in the last 5 years is preparing both me and Brad for something that He has in store for us. The trials we endured has given us a foundation to stand on for what awaits us in the future that God has planned for us.
"With God suffering is never the final outcome."
Our God is a God who heals! He took Brad and did healing work in Brad, He took Natasha and did healing work in Natasha then brought the 2 of us back together, reunited, reconnected and now I believe the restoring work is underway! Praise God! I had a lot of anger and resentment in me and I asked God to remove all those negative emotions which he did. There is just no point in harbouring all that negativity and I would always remain in bondage if I never got rid of it. Nobody has to pay for my pain. Jesus died for ALL of our sins, he paid the price so that we don't have to. There is nothing any of us could ever do that could ever cause God to stop loving us or to remove the promise of eternal life or any of God's promises to us while we are on earth. If I expect people to make up for all the "bad things" or "wrong things" or "all the things they were supposed to do but didn't" I would never be free and never move forward and move on from where I am right now. I wanted to see the promise of God in my life, my husband's life, the lives of our children and my marriage.
There is nothing too big for God, He is moved by FAITH and I practised going boldly to His throne and asked for BIG things believing that He is able. Slowly but surely all the things that I have asked are coming to pass and we are taking it a day at a time. There are still challenges that we face; as with all disasters, the clean up of the aftermath takes more time, work and resources but God gives us the strength, the time and the resources because we are held in the palm of His mighty hand. He is in control. It is actually a nice feeling having the ability to dance in the rain. It is easy to praise God when the sun is shining, when your bank account is full, when things are easy but it takes FAITH to be able to praise God in the midst of the storm; when you have so many needs but all you want to do is praise Him and say thank you for all He has already done!
God made it possible for us to go away for 5 days; accommodation and all other expenses covered not by our own means... it wasn't a luxurious vacation to an exotic destination but God knew what we needed and it was a supernatural, super spiritual divine experience. I hate walking and I decided to do a 4 hour hike with Brad because I know that he likes doing that kind of thing and I thought it would be special if this was something we did together. I also did it in honor of him and the progress that he made because I appreciate the challenge that he is currently enduring as he takes the 360 turnaround to place His life back in the hand of God.
I've never been more hopeful and never felt more blessed.
I prayed a bold prayer and God heard, He answered and He was moved by my FAITH in Him!
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